This tower's leaning over
Sep. 11th, 2020 09:51 amI am, as Mike Myers used to say, verklempt.
I mean, everyone is, at this point in the darkest timeline. But it's a bit much, isn't it? Democracy endangered all over the world, to say nothing of the environment; autocratic idiots voicing hate speech and stupidity to anyone who will listen; a pandemic; a long-delayed reckoning with police brutality and systemic racism; and catastrophic wildfires (at least in this part of the US; other places have floods, hurricanes, mudslides, and other kinds of natural disasters).
When I heard the tape of Bob Woodward's interview with the Toddler-in-Chief, I was horrified by the callous disregard that this elected official showed. It took a few hours and reading some social media posts for me to be horrified at Woodward's callous disregard--as many people have pointed out, he decided that a book deal meant more than informing the public.
And of course today is 9/11 which was going to be difficult and sad anyway. But the first thing I read this morning was this article from the Intercept, which just puts things into horrible, depressing perspective.
Everything really is piling up. I'm struggling not to just give up and collapse in a heap and cry for the rest of the day.
For one thing, I already have a sinus headache and for another, it wouldn't futzing help. So I guess I'll just have to do the usual--keep on keeping on.
I've been staring at this screen, writing and rewriting, and I could refer to "adulting" or tikkun olam or St. Ignatius but every time I write anything, it looks trite.
Work is a bit aggravating this morning. A couple weeks ago, I noted some discrepancies in a document, flagged all of them and suggested edits for consistent language. While I was out last week, the document went through another version. It came back to me yesterday, with all my comments removed and all the inconsistent language still there.
I checked in with Boss Editor, and it turns out that Program rejected these edits--from their comments, they want to treat the passage in question as quoted text. We take quoted text seriously, and we don't push back on rejected edits unless they're literally necessary for correct grammar, so Boss Editor let the rejection stand.
The problem is, Program asked us to remove brackets and ellipses several versions ago--which means that this passage is a PARAPHRASE and thus can (and should) be edited as necessary for clear, correct, and consistent language. Unfortunately, Boss Editor didn't know about Program's request to remove those brackets...
The most aggravating thing is that when I contact my boss on Skype for these work-related issues, she takes several minutes to respond. She replies almost immediately to my initial query, but then it can take five minutes or more before she replies to further information-gathering texts in the same conversation. During these intervals, maybe she's seeking information, but she doesn't tell me that. My last text is sitting there like a message in a bottle, and there's nothing incoming from her. For all I know, she's dropped the conversation.
Sometimes I get a reply 5 minutes later with a new piece of information; other times, when I've proposed a course of action and asked for her input, she might reply 20 minutes later, saying "yeah, sounds good"-- at which point I may or may not have already taken said course of action. But other times, the conversation ends with me saying "I guess I'll do x..."
It's far from reassuring. I'm not exactly a needy employee. I only ask questions after I've failed to find the answer, or when something just doesn't make sense. I know that she's busy, and given that she was just promoted in May she must still be adjusting to her new responsibilities. But the lack of communication leaves me feeling unsupported and all at sea. Worst of all, when I ask a question, I don't have a lot of confidence that she'll take it seriously. I mean...I'm an editor. If I'm going to be effective at my job, I need information. I have to ask questions.
I could also wish that it would occur to her that everyone is under unbelievable amounts of stress, at this time; and that those of us sheltering-in-place are coping with isolation (and, in many cases, depression). If she took those factors into consideration, she might not take such a lackadaisical approach to communicating with her direct reports.
I mean, everyone is, at this point in the darkest timeline. But it's a bit much, isn't it? Democracy endangered all over the world, to say nothing of the environment; autocratic idiots voicing hate speech and stupidity to anyone who will listen; a pandemic; a long-delayed reckoning with police brutality and systemic racism; and catastrophic wildfires (at least in this part of the US; other places have floods, hurricanes, mudslides, and other kinds of natural disasters).
When I heard the tape of Bob Woodward's interview with the Toddler-in-Chief, I was horrified by the callous disregard that this elected official showed. It took a few hours and reading some social media posts for me to be horrified at Woodward's callous disregard--as many people have pointed out, he decided that a book deal meant more than informing the public.
And of course today is 9/11 which was going to be difficult and sad anyway. But the first thing I read this morning was this article from the Intercept, which just puts things into horrible, depressing perspective.
Everything really is piling up. I'm struggling not to just give up and collapse in a heap and cry for the rest of the day.
For one thing, I already have a sinus headache and for another, it wouldn't futzing help. So I guess I'll just have to do the usual--keep on keeping on.
I've been staring at this screen, writing and rewriting, and I could refer to "adulting" or tikkun olam or St. Ignatius but every time I write anything, it looks trite.
Work is a bit aggravating this morning. A couple weeks ago, I noted some discrepancies in a document, flagged all of them and suggested edits for consistent language. While I was out last week, the document went through another version. It came back to me yesterday, with all my comments removed and all the inconsistent language still there.
I checked in with Boss Editor, and it turns out that Program rejected these edits--from their comments, they want to treat the passage in question as quoted text. We take quoted text seriously, and we don't push back on rejected edits unless they're literally necessary for correct grammar, so Boss Editor let the rejection stand.
The problem is, Program asked us to remove brackets and ellipses several versions ago--which means that this passage is a PARAPHRASE and thus can (and should) be edited as necessary for clear, correct, and consistent language. Unfortunately, Boss Editor didn't know about Program's request to remove those brackets...
The most aggravating thing is that when I contact my boss on Skype for these work-related issues, she takes several minutes to respond. She replies almost immediately to my initial query, but then it can take five minutes or more before she replies to further information-gathering texts in the same conversation. During these intervals, maybe she's seeking information, but she doesn't tell me that. My last text is sitting there like a message in a bottle, and there's nothing incoming from her. For all I know, she's dropped the conversation.
Sometimes I get a reply 5 minutes later with a new piece of information; other times, when I've proposed a course of action and asked for her input, she might reply 20 minutes later, saying "yeah, sounds good"-- at which point I may or may not have already taken said course of action. But other times, the conversation ends with me saying "I guess I'll do x..."
It's far from reassuring. I'm not exactly a needy employee. I only ask questions after I've failed to find the answer, or when something just doesn't make sense. I know that she's busy, and given that she was just promoted in May she must still be adjusting to her new responsibilities. But the lack of communication leaves me feeling unsupported and all at sea. Worst of all, when I ask a question, I don't have a lot of confidence that she'll take it seriously. I mean...I'm an editor. If I'm going to be effective at my job, I need information. I have to ask questions.
I could also wish that it would occur to her that everyone is under unbelievable amounts of stress, at this time; and that those of us sheltering-in-place are coping with isolation (and, in many cases, depression). If she took those factors into consideration, she might not take such a lackadaisical approach to communicating with her direct reports.